I want to start this off by saying that I know it's been awhile since I posted, it's been an interesting few months, I promise to catch you up in the next post. This one is for my dad though.
Dear Daddy,
I can't believe it's been just over a year since you left us. I still think about, talk to, and miss you everyday. You meant more to me than I ever realized and I wish it hadn't taken me losing you to see that. You were/are an amazing man. From being a firefighter, to a bus driver, to an amazing dad.
You always supported me and my choices, I know you didn't always agree with them, that support meant the world to me and it still does. While I wish you were here, I know I will still have that support, that support is one of the things that keeps me motivated. One of the motivators I have is wanting you to be proud of me and be a tribute to your name. You showed me that life is about finding your purpose and that purpose will lead to happiness. You showed me that sometimes being yourself isn't always what everyone expects from you and that's ok. I watched you be yourself and not care about what others thought and it inspired me.
I also saw you come up with ideas and follow through on them, more than once you'd get frustrated with something and have to keep trying, but you almost always got it done. You showed me how to be patient even if you have to dig down deep for it.
I have to say one of my fondest memories with you was when I had the foster kittens, you kept telling me I had to do all the work myself and you wouldn't help. I had my alarm set for bottle feedings and stuff to take them to work with me, first alarm went off and I got up to start feeding. There you were with a tiny kitten in your hands talking to her, coaxing her to eat with the look on your face you always had for babies. You looked at me and said "well I knew you needed sleep"
I've looked for pictures of you, just you and almost all of them you have a baby or kid with you. It's how I remember you, always in the thick of things. You showed me what to look for in a man, and what to accept and not to accept from people. I learned so much from you. I wish I could have learned more. I wish my future kids would have the chance to learn from you.
Here is a promise I will always have for you. I will never stop talking to you, I will never stop thinking about you. I will make you proud. I know I already have.
Love,
Your little girl
